I loved you once...

I fell in love last year...

After years of not knowing what I was missing I quickly became addicted to your sweetness. I thought this love would last forever. I'm sad to say that I don't feel the same way about you as I did before. I once looked forward to our time together but now you cause my head to ache and throb and my insides feel a bit uneasy. I thought I meant more to you than that. We made such a good pair. You were always there for me when I had a bad day or needed a pick me up. I thought I could count on you but lately you haven't made me happy at all. Instead my head works a million miles a minute and I regret my decision. I don't rely on you like I used to and maybe it is time we took a break. I think it would be good for me. I need to experience a bit more of a variety. I hope I can still occasionally experience your goodness but if this is goodbye forever I just want you to know that I will always have special place in my heart for you.
It's not you, it's me. Dr. Pepper thank you for the magical moments we have spent together but it is time I kicked this caffeine habit for a while. 

getting crafty

This craft level was set too an extreme difficulty. I'm pretty proud of the result though so I'm documenting it on da blogity blog.

Kalli, Carly and I spent hours battling the tangled string and limited amount of glue in the hot glue gun.

However, struggle and all I would say it was worth it.

just a year ago

March 28th 2013 was the day I officially meet Adam Esplin.

I have to say officially because I had heard about and facestalked him for weeks leading up to this day.

I will forever be grateful for that "blind" date.

This photo is from just a few days later.
This was probably the best snow cone I have ever eaten.

A piece of my journal entry from a year ago...
"I was so scared to go! but it only took a few minutes with Adam to feel completely comfortable. He was such a funny, kind, easy to talk to and super handsome date. {description of date} I sure wish I would have met him a few years ago. He really is such a great kid who loves his family and has his priorities right. Man after one date I'm pretty flustered."

classy

Black and White Jazz Night

Finger foods, elegant attire and jiggedy jazz music.

There seems to be endless amounts of new fun things to experience when you are an Aggie.

Pick Me Ups

I've experienced so many ups and downs this week. I have felt really foolish because I can't seem to control my mood or emotions. I had no excuse to be an emotional wreck but I was. I was surrounded by the usual giggles and screams of a freshman dorm and yet I felt so lonely. It was near the middle of the night but I found myself going to my rock here in Logan. Big brothers are honestly the best and I don't know what I would do without mine. Boy am I grateful for that guy who honors his priesthood and offered me a blessing and let me invade on his apartment until I could pull myself back together.
I also had another big blessing this week that came in a little package. Her name is Kira. I don't know if she will ever know how much I needed that trip to frozen yogurt (that ended up lasting all night) or her kind heart and listening ear. She had no idea that I was feeling down when she asked me if I wanted to go get ice cream. Making friends isn't as easy as I remember it being but it is easy with her. I thanked my Father in Heaven that night for sending me some easy laughter and good company.

together again

We may go to different Universities now but we still know how to have a good time.

I'm so glad Savanna and Aubrey made a spontaneous trip to Logan.

I love these girls. I miss them!

waiting is wasting

I have lived 7,012 days

And today I have come to the realization that I have spent far too many of them waiting. I wait for the day when this is going to happen or the day when I finally reach that mile stone. Too much waiting is wasted time. There are only 6 weeks left in my first year of college and I don't want to waste them. Here is to not waiting for it to end but instead living every moment, minute and memory knowing that March 18th 2014 only ever happens once. I want to make these last 45ish days as a freshman in college mean something because life is fragile and nothing will ever be the same as it is today.

No more just waiting for my mission, preparing still but I don't want to wish time away. The time I have left with these people in this circumstance is precious and it is limited.